I just broke down... I was just reading this stupid quote on Tumblr about moving on and then it just got to me and I broke down crying, I couldn't seem to stop and I hadn't cried so hard in a long time.
It's just that everything is getting to me, like I can't even get out of bed, and when I'm there I can't even sleep and forget about shit, no, I just cry! The only way to laugh is to read some stupid meaningless book where a perfect boy gets the girl, it's so cliché but during those few hours I'm fine with it.
And then in my social life I just keep being my same fucking antisocial being, and not having a car is seriously hindering my efforts to get out of bed. Just the thought of asking someone taking me, knowing that they hate carrying me around and I'm just a burden. I'm so stupid that I wouldn't even want to hang around me, and the worst part is that by doind this I just keep aleniating more people. I know I should be happier, or at least appear, but I don't even know how to pretend to be happy and normal.
Sigh.... And by doing this I just keep making this blog more depressing.... It's just that I need somewhere to vent at 2 a.m. Sorry.
btw I'm at a point where I understand why people become alcoholics or drug addicts, but damn I don't have some right now!
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